Just is.

Its amazing how many blogs I write inside my head, too lazy to reach out to a 'device' to make it permanent. & inside my head I appreciate some ideas, refine some, rebuke myself for some soppy posts, its literally become my hobby. What follows today are just some ramblings, since the universe has come together to make me feel that this is no ordinary life!

Amazing how much you want to fit into your life & top that with the pressure (and fun) of living in the captial of the world- of arts, of dreams, of music, of theatre and fame and money. Being in a seat such as this, with a little ebony writing desk (assembled by me) a comfortable swivel (also assembled by me) and this whacked out pencil-thin squiggly red reading light, looking into the Hudson, peeping straight out of my french window at the Empire state & Chrystler building-grand structures symbolic of the city I live in, I know this is no ordinary life. However, once you reach this realization (everyone has one such doofed out realization* sometime in life), believe in it with conviction, you don't know where to start. You feel tremors of excitement that you are on some amazing trajectory, but you just don't know what to do now-purposefully, to accelerate up that path.

How many people have you met that are sure they want to pursue their entreprenueial dreams but are waiting on an idea that can move them? An idea that can convince them to be a fool...everything's just right but for the push-start button.

For starts,today the "purpose" of my life (apart from the regular humdrum work day)was to make from scratch a very flavorful chettinad chicken dish. I enjoyed the pounding of khada masala or grating coconut and the works. I believe that anything that brings me joy (the kind that is a more mellow,even and somewhat peaceful) is helping me think better to push me along the "great life" trajectory. Not to say that the garish, cheap thrills and rabid adventures are any less welcome. A true libran, I like it all, in extremes.

Irrelevant to the banter but our home is coming along beautifully. Its quite an amazing experience when an empty shell starts to look a little comfortable and at some tipping point starts to resemble a "home". I remember my husband curiously innocent when he asked me 15 days into shifting into this new apartment-'We're doing everything right, the furniture looks great but somehow it doesn't look like a home'. It truly is amazing, that moment when it suddenly does!

I am also now a proud got-it-right-the-first-time ice skater!! Its been a childlike dream to want to glide on that ice and it came true- not elegantly or gracefully, but through awkward moves and sloppy technique, I could still glide. And it brought so much happiness to the child inside me. Something I intend to pursue.

The holiday season is beautiful here. Its a legal time for the 'industry' to push out happiness at you in all shapes, sizes and angles. Its all about "gifts" and "food" and merry making. The streets are all lit up, shops are going ballistic with discount sales and pumpkin, gingerbread & eggnog flavors are suddenly everywhere-from your latte to muffin.

Dinner with Ms K was a revelation. Where has K not travelled to? The real story of a certain debauch media mogul turning saint & going the NGO way was priceless! What experiences people have had...& then there is Ms A, living the NY life. People, they never fail to astonish & their stories bring relish & delight!

Notes:
* try something new and exciting
* try everything that brings you instant happiness (the peaceful type)
* listen to experiences that people have had,you'll be genuinely surprised where they've been- in the good way & bad!

All around, something exciting is going on. I feel it. I don't have any logic, reason or theory (for a change). Just is.
















Steve JObs' aha moment- the day you realize that this world was made by people who were no smarter than you are. That you can make a change to the world anytime you wanted to...believing in this changed his life! Oh by the way, must check out 'Steve Jobs-One Last Time' its running free on Amazon for prime members.