This post was written way back in May '07, the period after my MBA and before joining the economic workforce...just felt it had 'earned' its bread, so here goes nothing!
"From a mind not used to such idle, it is a downward spiral. An idle which brings spoil to the otherwise tight machinery of emotions…An idle; which showers time on me, like an heirloom, reminding me to douse myself in memories…some true…some semi-true…some even make-believe!
After living in a pseudo-real frame, you begin to suddenly doubt and even believe reality to be unreal. Once again, that anticipation…not ‘tingling’…like that of a school girl seeking admissions to pursue higher education, or that of a college student joining the work force for the first time…but anticipation nonetheless.
True to my nomadic existence, I’ve found myself a new set of linkages, some bondage, some responsibilities and some addictions. ‘The future lies before you like a sheet of snow’…my reality shall snow after one really long…Gives me once more the unwanted luxury of self introspection, dominated by retrospection. Of chances which I let go…of opportunities seized and many I watched drift away from my grip. It’s not about regrets and remorse…nor elation or joy. It’s just drudgery…like a film screening you were forced to attend!
Catch time by its ear…that’s what I’m going to do. Find a way to engage myself, make time a background process…have it chase me instead, once again!"
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