Jig-Saw unpuzzled!

Loops of meaningless shapes, entangled into one another...but they make perfect sense to me! To an outsider they may appear chaotic, confused, absurd or even scary...to me each arc on those loops has millions of tiny memories associated with them. I'm talking about the 'relationships' section of my mind. And yes, thankfully nobody else can peer in and have a look.

Funny how a little more than a casual chat with N y'day brought out this chain of reasoning to life. Don't think he'd believe it himself. It's true... 'I thrive on a confused status'.("Thrive" makes me sound like one of those parasitic bacteria or other such primitve life forms, of which I'm definitely not a part!)

So, is it a good idea to form a reasonsing based on the past? Like if something fits a trend, is it fair to extrapolate it to a conclusion? If that is so...then I confess, I have commitment issues! As long as its hazy and unclear...and it's like a little game (for the lack of a better adjective, I shall use that word as my crutch). As long as it's just a possibility, even as far as bordering on something more precise, solid...I'm in it, convinced, in-total...but give it another inch on the commitment side, and I get unsure, uncomfortable...well, and I wriggle out of it feeling guilty for the next X months/years... So, if this is an accurate way to analyze oneself, then I'm the kind of girl who'd make a perfect "good guy's" nightmare...

However, if life is not about patterns but about different case specific exchanges and reactions between evolved individuals...then there is still hope for me! :)

At this point in my vacation, it doesn't faze me...taking time out to analyze and understand oneself is great...but I ain't fretting on it...not just yet!

p.s. Found a great read for women...."This is not Chic Lit"...awesome stuff, pick it up girls!!!